::Thoughts Tuesday::

I have been having a rough patch lately! I have been crying a lot..I mean like everyday. I thought I was going crazy & so did my poor husband. Those that know me know that I have had lots of eating issues. Not so severe to be forced to rehab or end up in the hospital, but it is still a battle. I dropped a lot of weight in high school. I know I have done the most rewarding thing by bringing my boys into this world, but it sucks that your body has to be so screwed up afterwards. It use to be so easy to get in shape & stay that way. I am so out of shape it's ridiculous & I have no ambition to do something about it. Then it seems like when I do try I don't see results. It is such a huge flip flop situation. I have to tell myself constantly that I am Enough The Way I Am. I know I'm worth it. Staying healthy for my boys is huge. I don't ever want to have such a terrible problem to take myself away from my boys. I would be devastated. I love them so much. I know I will never look the way I did in High School. Trevor is my rock. He tells me constantly how beautiful I am & how much he appreciates the things I do for our family. I really need to learn to love myself...just takes time.